Ten. Zen.

This experiment is making waves in my life. It's not surprising at all, and it is very good to know that it is making positive changes for me. Nothing major yet, just many small shifts I am starting to see.

I had a dream about this blog last night. Many times in my life, I have had this dream about an old lady-- she's a dead ancestor of mine, but I'm not positive who she is. I think she is my great-grandmother, but I'm not sure. Two years ago this October, I had the first dream. She and I sat in a garden, having tea. she took off her shoes, let her long white hair down and lit a smoke (none of my great-grandmothers smoked as far as I know). She told me there was a big change coming but that I'd be okay and even better in the end for it. I began asking for specifics and she put up a hand and told me that it was about to hit the fan, but that I should work hard and find a way to put a positive spin on things no matter what. And, I woke up. Three hours later, I was in an emergency room, having just been in a terrible car accident-- hit by a man in a giant truck en route to his wife's funeral!! Somehow I stayed pretty cool throughout the ordeal, and later into the day, I remembered the dream. Freaky, sure, but there's more. The orthopedist who repaired my crunched knee a few days later said in passing that he hoped I wasn't too active, because I surely wouldn't be very active anymore with a knee in this sort of shape. Fire lit! Some connection was made there in my head and I got a coach and trained for a marathon and ran the whole thing only eight months after the wreck. Sure, halfway through the marathon, my knee totally gave out. It took me under two hours to run the first half (not bad at all!) and considerably more time to run the second half. But, I ran the whole thing. and, in the process of training, I gained a lot of confidence and became more self-reliant and was able to translate that to other areas of my life. Would any of it happened had I not been in the wreck? Who knows. But, it happened that way, and I think it turned out perfectly. After that, I dream about sitting with this "Dream Granny" all the time. Sometimes, it's little small bits of info, sometimes her advice only makes sense later, sometimes it's huge and shocking insights.

But, "Dream Granny" showed up again last night. She told me that my book was going to sell better than I thought it would and I'd have the respect of the people who mattered after the "big ordeal" because I was going to take the high road and just be above reproach. Then, she said that when the "four strange projects" come in the next six months, that I should say yes. I'm being mindful of her words and not making a judgements about any of it, but only going to do my best and not worry. Whether she is my own awareness in a form I'd initially trust as wise enough to listen to, or if I really am getting otherworldly visits doesn't matter-- her advice never has failed me before.

That said, today is $10,000 and that is a lot. I'm having fun spending, but I want to make this blogging more about visualizing and being really specific and covering the things I actually need, too. So, today, I am taking $4,400 and paying rent for six months. $5,000 goes into my flimsy but determined little savings account. The $600 remaining is buying a once-over and vaccinations for Chairman Meow at the vet, repairing the brake sensor on my car, covering my now-due oil change and renting a car for me to drive to my family reunion this weekend.